Hey guys, 2nd time round typing my feelings and intro on this forum as I accidentally closed the tab while typing silly me LOL probably due to my fat fingers haha.
Anyway found this forum while googling never knew such a place existed so i thought to just give it a shot and state my current dilemma. I'm a 27 year old morbidly obese guy, every since i could remember i've always been overweight. From primary to tertiary i've never remembered even once passing my IPPT/NAPFA and not being in the TAF club LOL. I've always been a heavy big boned person, and i've accepted the fact that i'll never be like those thin guys with slim fit jeans or those A&F models at orchard. So right now as i type this i've come to a point of pure depression. I shy away from public as people tend to laugh or point at me, worse part is I have a wonderful girlfriend and we've been together for 10 years now and she's seen me grow from like 100kg to now tipping almost 190kg estimating as my weighing scale just goes up to 185 and it has gone error already due to my fat ass on it LOL. Whenever i go out, which i rarely do, i dont even hold her hand cause i just know people are pointing and saying "look at that fat asshole with that girl" it hurts so much mentally and emotionally. I've had friends ask my gf "what do you see in him" and "eh when she leaves you can i have her" its not that she's hot lah but i think all these people are just out to fuck around with me which most of the time i do nothing about it. Ever since i saw my cousin in the US do this amazing transformation with his body I really have been wanting to change. I'm sick and tired of being in pain every single day. Walk pain, sit pain everything is pain when you've reached this size.
Touch wood luckily so far i havent gotten any sickness and still am doing A'OK apart from the borderline blood pressure which is deffinitely the root of all the bad shit thats gonna happen. I don't wanna die befoe i'm 40 and leave behind my gf/future wife with kids she has to fend for on her own, i wanna live long enough to take care of my parents and i believe i owe them the biggest of big times man.
So my apologies on rambling, what i need now is actually for someone to toss me a bone here, i'm so extremely shy and intimidated to go to a gym and everyones so fit and staring at this fat monster. How guys? how do i do this how do i get up and motivate myself I WANNA DO THIS i dont want it to be a one time thing i wanna get fit and buffed and for my size a few of my friends have said I could get very big with my physique.
Where do i begin, discipline motivation. Getting that first HUGE STEP over with.
If you've read this far I thank you with all my heart for "staying tuned" LOL and hope to hear some awesome stuff from all the fit people here =)
Anyway found this forum while googling never knew such a place existed so i thought to just give it a shot and state my current dilemma. I'm a 27 year old morbidly obese guy, every since i could remember i've always been overweight. From primary to tertiary i've never remembered even once passing my IPPT/NAPFA and not being in the TAF club LOL. I've always been a heavy big boned person, and i've accepted the fact that i'll never be like those thin guys with slim fit jeans or those A&F models at orchard. So right now as i type this i've come to a point of pure depression. I shy away from public as people tend to laugh or point at me, worse part is I have a wonderful girlfriend and we've been together for 10 years now and she's seen me grow from like 100kg to now tipping almost 190kg estimating as my weighing scale just goes up to 185 and it has gone error already due to my fat ass on it LOL. Whenever i go out, which i rarely do, i dont even hold her hand cause i just know people are pointing and saying "look at that fat asshole with that girl" it hurts so much mentally and emotionally. I've had friends ask my gf "what do you see in him" and "eh when she leaves you can i have her" its not that she's hot lah but i think all these people are just out to fuck around with me which most of the time i do nothing about it. Ever since i saw my cousin in the US do this amazing transformation with his body I really have been wanting to change. I'm sick and tired of being in pain every single day. Walk pain, sit pain everything is pain when you've reached this size.
Touch wood luckily so far i havent gotten any sickness and still am doing A'OK apart from the borderline blood pressure which is deffinitely the root of all the bad shit thats gonna happen. I don't wanna die befoe i'm 40 and leave behind my gf/future wife with kids she has to fend for on her own, i wanna live long enough to take care of my parents and i believe i owe them the biggest of big times man.
So my apologies on rambling, what i need now is actually for someone to toss me a bone here, i'm so extremely shy and intimidated to go to a gym and everyones so fit and staring at this fat monster. How guys? how do i do this how do i get up and motivate myself I WANNA DO THIS i dont want it to be a one time thing i wanna get fit and buffed and for my size a few of my friends have said I could get very big with my physique.
Where do i begin, discipline motivation. Getting that first HUGE STEP over with.
If you've read this far I thank you with all my heart for "staying tuned" LOL and hope to hear some awesome stuff from all the fit people here =)
